Not a single day goes by that Lorraine Lovell does not think about her daughter Krystal Lovell, who was allegedly stabbed to death by an ex-boyfriend just over two years ago.
Sometimes it is difficult to hold back the tears when she looks into the eyes of Krystal’s beautiful four-year-old daughter Skye, who sadly witnessed the killing of her own mum around 9:10 p.m.
on December 1, 2013.
Lovell ever remembers the promise to Krystal she would ensure Skye received the best care she deserved.
“Before this thing happened and my daughter died, my daughter always use to tell me, ‘Mummy, I don’t know if I gine go before you, or if you gine go before me, but I know you gine take care of Skye for me’.
“I used to tell her, ‘Krystal, stop talking nonsense, because you know I might be the body to go before you’.
“I never know it did gine be the way she was talking about it. When she died, I tell myself I am going to do it because we talked about it,” Lovell recalled, as she spoke to Barbados TODAY at her Highland, St Thomas home, giving an update on how the family had been coping with Krystal’s untimely death.
Family members told Barbados TODAY that Krystal’s alleged killer Jarrick Tudor had come through the gates and attacked her while she was accompanied by her daughter as she entered her small abode just inches away from her parents’ house on the same property.
Lovell, who was not at home when the incident occurred but received a call from her younger daughter Khanesha informing her Krystal had been stabbed and was not moving, admitted it was very difficult reflecting on that dreadful Sunday night when her knees went weak as she arrived home and saw “the flood of police and residents”.
At times Lovell would lie in bed staring at the ceiling thinking about the times she had spent with her firstborn who was working at C.S Pharmacy at the time of her death, and was also an aspiring caretaker as she was studying caring for the elderly at the Samuel Jackman Prescod Polytechnic.
“I can’t tell myself that I would ever get over it. It is something I’m trying to bear with. It still hurts me every time I study it.
“I does study how my child just gone long just so, and I didn’t get the chance to tell she goodbye, or that I love she,” the soft-spoken mother said.
And Skye asks for her mother all the time.
The grandmother said to some extent the child understood her mother would not be coming home to tuck her to bed ever again; but she often asked to see her face in pictures. The little girl would admire her mother’s make-up, and mention how she used to see her putting it on.
“She would turn around and say, ‘I want to put on some lipstick and look just like my mummy’. When I see she talking about her mother so, it just brings tears to my eyes,” Lovell said, taking a moment to reflect on the thought.
The grandmother admitted that taking care of the financial needs of the child Skye was not always easy, though she received
Lovell declared that it did not matter if she had nothing for herself; she always ensured, even through sacrifice, that Skye’s needs were met.
Granny said Skye was excelling at nursery school, and that teachers had reported she was very active and had a hearty appetite.
“I tell myself that I ain’t waiting to depend on nobody. I remember when Skye get admitted to nursery school. I had some money at that time, and I went and get everything. I get she school clothes, she shoes, she bags –– everything for Skye,” she declared proudly.
Lovell said as much as she thought about Krystal every day, the stronger the bond between her and Skye was becoming. Grandma must be home at night for Skye to lie on her warm chest and fall asleep.
“. . . I would shake her to sleep. If the other grandchildren sitting on me, Skye would force herself in between them. She always want to be around me. Skye is a loving little girl –– just a little hard-ears,” she divulged as she watched the child prance around the room.
And Skye not only looks a lot like her departed mum, she takes Lovell back down memory lane to when firstborn Krystal was a little girl.
“There are certain times I would sit down and I would talk with Skye. I would say, ‘Skye?’ She would say, ‘Yes, Granny’.
“I would say, ‘You remember you mummy?’ She would say, ‘Yes, Granny.’
“I would tell she, ‘The things you do now, your mummy use to do them’.
“Every time I look at Skye, I see her mum,” Lovell said, nodding her head.
Recently, murder accused Sean Watson was released from prison on bail. And Lovell, who has been keeping track of the latest developments in the judicial system, said she sometimes wondered if the man who was charged with her daughter’s death would be offered bail too.
“It is something that I just don’t want to think about,” she added.
“I am asking the Lord to guide me and keep me alive, at least to be there for Skye always. I will keep on carrying her to Sunday School and church; and I pray that everything will work out for me and my family.”
This is Lorraine Lovell’s daily supplication.