My sons, how long will you ignore my cries from the pain in my gut, wailing night and day when I sit in the courthouse, or stand in its yard watching the guard take you away to be shut behind the bars of the prison which hides you away from your freedom in society.
How long will the pangs of grief linger when I watch you being lowered in the grave not from sickness, or accident or natural death, but from your own demise, engaging yourself in the life of guns against your own brother whether biological or not.
My sons, have I not chosen to bring you into this world rather than abort you, have I not carried you for nine months and at the end of that time brought you forth with pain that placed me in a position of life or death? Did I not nurture you from the breast and made sure you were well nourished? Did I not pray day and night to the Lord God Almighty for your safety all the day long? Did I not take you to the house of God to be nourished in the things of God which laid a firm foundation for life? Did you not receive a firm education and the teachings of right and wrong.
How be it now that you have chosen a path that leads to destruction, killing your own brother, neighbour, friend or foe. Did I not alert you from the Word of God that if you live by the sword you will die by the sword?
My sons, you have allowed those who should be your keeper to sway you from the truth and facts of life for good and honest living which you were taught, so that they can become rich. Were you not taught that the love of money is the root of all evil?
Am I, your mother dead, or your father, or your siblings, or your children or your extended families? Do you not care about the pain and the anguish you put us through when you allow your greed to direct your path?
Alas, my sons, you have turned from your upbringing, turned away from the morals and values you were taught, you have allowed the greedy to use you as their footstool. Now you have been caught. Will those who used you be any help now in your time of trouble? Certainly not! They will just find another victim to carry on their hunger for money and power.
And now my sons, I can only ask and humbly so, that you desist from being used by the greedy who because of your actions, live like kings and lords, while you have to watch your back and do evil to carry on. They live in castles and kingdoms, while you run from one place to another having no rest. You labour day and night for your survival, earning very little in the end while those who engage you in crime eat the fatted calf, can rest their head comfortably at night, wear the finest and live. You are the one doing their dirty dishes.
My plea to you, put down the guns, any weapon that is used on your intended victim, fall to your knees as you were taught and cry out to God who is able to turn your life around, who is able to clean you up, who is able to protect and guide you and who is able to help you to walk away from a life of crime.
I am tired of crying, I am tired of going through locked doors to speak to you and cannot touch you. I am tired of your children asking, when will you come home. I am tired of the stares of those who know you and what you have done. I am not tired of praying.
This is time to stop and think. Where will your life end? When your rivals or your masters of crime cannot get you because you fouled up their plans, then they will look for your family. Have you become so selfish that you put your very own family in danger?
I pray God will open your blinded eyes to the understanding that you are weak and that you need help, that is, divine help. If you are willing to accept and confess that you need help, then God certainly will help you. Please sons, don’t continue in this mess, come out.
Now my sons, the Lord is your light and salvation, turn to Him now, the Lord is the strength of your life, turn to Him now, the Lord is your deliverer and keeper, turn to Him now, the Lord is your provider, turn to Him now.
Please, my sons, walk away from a life of doom while you can. Jesus Christ our Saviour and mediator will ask of our Heavenly Father on your behalf, and our Heavenly Father who created us all, and who love us with an unconditional love will have mercy, pardon you of all your sinful ways and cleanse you from all unrighteousness. You must be willing to repent and turn away from a life of crime and eventually your own destruction.
I am, your mother.