A 43-year-old mother of five is still grieving nine months after the disappearance of her son Daquan Willy St. Hill. He was last seen by his father at Bums Variety on February 9th of this year.
Sharon Callender’s pain stems from not knowing what happened to her son on that day. Worse, the Royal Barbados Police Force have not recovered her son’s remains.
Speaking to Barbados TODAY from her Dash Valley, St George home, Callender said she believed having a memorial service for St. Hill last Saturday would have brought her much needed closure. The only thing it has brought though, is more pain, more grief.
“I thought that when I do the memorial service, I would feel better. But, after I got there and I saw that picture it just tear me up inside and I say, Lord they ain’t got nobody. This is what I got to hold on to,” she said, looking visibly distraught.
“It hurt. What the pastor said is true that without a body it will hurt. I have no closure,” she said.
Callender told us the memorial service was hard for the family, particularly Daquan’s grandmother.
“To this day his grandmother does call me and sometimes I don’t feel like talking to her as she is always crying. She and Daquan had a close relationship. She has lost so much weight that it has her kind of sick,” she said.
Daquan lived with his grandmother.
His grieving mother said if her son had died of natural causes she would have understood, but for him to be taken from the earth without a trace was a hard burden to bear.
Callender said she knew that her son was dead after a search of the Dash Valley Playing Field on February 12th provided no answers to her son’s whereabouts.
“From the time they searched around [Dash Valley Playing Field] and them ain’t find he, I know for sure my son did gone. Daquan ain’t nobody to go up on that pasture unless somebody called him up there that he trusts,” she said.
As she reminisced about her son, Callender spoke of him in the present tense, a sure indication that she still had not come to grips with the fact he may never return home.
“Daquan is frightened [of] the dark. He is a ‘frighten boy’ let me tell you and a mummy’s boy. I see Daquan went to a guest house a time. It was an overnight thing. When 5 o’clock, Daquan walk from the beach house until he came home,” she said.
Callender told Barbados TODAY, every time there is word a body is found, the family hoped it was Daquan.
She believed some residents at Dash Valley, St George, have information on the circumstances surrounding her son’s disappearance and death.
“I know somebody out here know something but them ain’t saying nothing. I would like whoever it is to just say where his remains are that I could go to that place and give my son a proper burial. That is all I would like. To find my son’s remains,” she said.
Callender told Barbados TODAY that the family has decided to hold a candlelight vigil on February 9th, 2019 to commemorate the day when the family last saw St Hill.